Nano is obviously a bust for me, again, this year.
It's okay though, because I got the start of something that just needs a better catalyst. I ruminate, I go elsewhere in my writing, and eventually it may return with the catalyst. It's time to let go for the time being at least, if not for good. I do still like my characters a lot. If they don't live in this book, they may show up elsewhere. I really like the main character's best friend, and the dynamic between them.
So I return to the original manuscript - the one I've been avoiding editing the last thirty pages of since well before Nano. Sure, I have plenty going on in my life to 'distract from the writing' as we say, but the fact remains, I want to sell this book. I believe in it. My trouble is I need to believe in myself.
While it has taken me years to write it, I always believed in it, but now I am at the point where I just need to finish prepping it for the real world. For those other people to read it - the professionals. This is where it gets tricky, because I really don't handle rejection well. Rejection cuts like a knife. And it has very little to do with writing. This is something I've dealt with in pretty much all areas of life.
But I'm a smart girl. I can reason it out and move forward. I can do what I need to, and right now, that is edit.